She watches The Hours on DVD. I saw it first in a theatre in Bangkok, I had to stand up for the national anthem, paying homage to the king. For some reason I fled the theatre before the credits started running. This time she lies on my sofa and listens to the commentary made by the three actresses. How art affects life. That every woman expresses art or the hunger for perfection differently.
WRITING
COOKING
GIVING A PARTY
I STOPPED LANGUAGE WHEN I WAS WITH HIM.
My language not unlike his string of lights had been taped against doors, the fridge and living roomwalls of E 17. I had entrusted him with the house key before leaving India for Paris to renew my visa. Over the phone he kept repeating L’s name and that he had found a photograph with a man in it. E 17 was alive when I returned. For some reason, Sushila hadn't cleared the garbage. Blue plastic bags tied together with yellow cotton thread filled with empty baby bottles of Bagpiper Whiskey. abandoned babies embracing,
He was an alcoholic & suicidal, a liar, a thief, an avoider. depressed. weak. beautiful. no education. beautiful. violent when drunk. beautiful. people pleaser. coward. beautiful. 10 years later, someone will describe him as a ‘Con Artist’.
What compells someone to fall for a Con Artist?
CAN ARTISTS BE COWARDS?
John Hamm described Don Draper as a coward.
James Baldwin wrote “The role of the artist is exactly the same as the role of the lover. If I love you, I have to make you conscious of the things you don’t see.”